Ingat tak semasa bulan puasa, timbul isu mengenai Indonesia tuduh kita menggunakan Tarian Pendet kepunyaan negaranya untuk mempromosikan Malaysia dalam Discovery Channel?
Saya terkena tempias daripada tuduhan tersebut. Kebetulan saya sebut nama Malaysia dalam salah satu laman web yang ada. Dan adalah seorang hamba Allah dari Indonesia memberi komen yang agak emosi kepada saya.
Pada satu tengahari yang memboringkan, saya melayari Youtube untuk mencari konsert " live " OST dari Final Fantasy ( videogame kegemaran dari sekolah ). Kebetulan, saya terserempak dengan video bertajuk " Beginning of Fantasy ".
Apa lagi, saya klik video itu.
Video itu adalah konsert orkestra yang memainkan beberapa buah lagu daripada videogame tersebut secara live. Konsert itu di adakan di Indonesia. Jadi saya menonton lagu kegemaran saya dari koleksi video-video yang berkaitan dengan konsert itu.
Selepas habis menonton, saya memberi komen , " I wished they come to Malaysia ".
Kenapa saya berkata begitu? Kerana saya betul-betul berharap agar Nobuo Uematsu datang membuat konsert FF di Malaysia. Konsert orkestranya sangat best. ( Pada pendapat saya )
Tiba-tiba, adalah hamba Allah yang membalas komen saya.
" of course they won`t!!!! this are indonesian orchestra!!!!! Addie MS the leader of twillite orchestra is an Indonesian!!!!!!! if you want it in that stupid country of yours!!!! make your own!!!! and don`t you dare tell the world that this concert are from your stupid, crazy, disgusting country!!!! You malaysian are savages!!!!! "
Alamak, ada orang tengah marah. Takutnye.
Saya agak terkejut dengan komen yang diberi.
Seingat saya, komen yang saya beri adalah berbentuk harapan, bukan cercaan kepada konsert atau pembalas komen tersebut.
Saya berpendapat hamba Allah ini mesti terpengaruh dengan berita-berita negatif yang berkaitan dengan isu Tarian Pendet sebelum ini.
Tak mengapalah, saya tak kisah.
Saya tak perlu " deal " dengan sesetengah orang yang sempit pemikirannya dan tidak tahu mengenai keadaan sebenar yang berlaku dalam isu tersebut.
Sebaliknya, saya balas semula dengan ayat ini ,
" I really love Tour De Japon concert. They are my faves. too"
Kebetulan saya tonton pula video Tour de Japon: At Zanarkand yang sungguh mendayu-dayu. Dan dia juga memberi komen yang baik. Tapi untuk video, bukannya untuk saya.
Saya tertanya-tanya?
Jahat sangatkah kita kepada mereka? Mungkin ada sesetengah orang Malaysia yang melayan mereka atau melakukan perkara yang teruk kepada orang-orang di seberang ini.
Tapi,
Tak semua orang kita " jahat " seperti yang mereka sangka.
Kalau nak di ikutkan siapa yang buat jahat kepada siapa, sebenarnya tak ada beza. Kita semua manusia. Sama sahaja jahatnya.
:)
Klik di sini untuk menonton video " Beginning of Fantasy: Liberi Fatali (FF8)"
Klik di sini untuk menonton video " Tour De Japon : At Zanarkand "
Basically, we understood this particular word as a knife which is not sharpen, or a rounded edge of a pencil.
But, have you ever heard of the term " blunt " in speech ?
This term means that someone gave you a direct comment or something which you consider quite harsh or not saving your face.
Example: A : Aren't you going to the mosque this evening? B: When the heck did I say that? (with an unease tone)
something like that...
Lately, I had come across this friend who would love to give blunt response whenever I asked him/her about something.
And I found it quite ... hurting. It hurts.
And I could not look at this person as a nice person that I always thought of.
I became afraid of asking or suggesting things, especially to this kind of person. I think I did ask properly but this person will just keep on doing it without thinking other people's feelings at that time.
I am afraid that If I tried to defend myself, it would turn into a fight. And I will lose this friend of mine. I dont want this to happen.
Tell me, how do you deal with other people's bluntness?
Today is the 52 years of our Merdeka ( independence ).
This year's theme is " 1Malaysia, Rakyat Di Dahulukan, Pencapaian Di Utamakan " , meaning Malaysia is One, the citizens comes first and the achievement is the main priority (err..something like that ).
What do Malaysians do during the morning of the Independence Day? 1. Lazying in front of the tv and watch the Parade. 2. Doing household chores. 3. Sleeping. 4. Visiting relatives. 5. Working? 6. ... What else? ( these are just random guess)
What about me?
Since I am still studying in UKM, I just watch the Parade on the Berita Harian online channel on Youtube.
It's been a while. I have not post anything since the Ramadan wish. Are you fasting today? Well I'm not. :D
Have you ever felt that you have been living your life completely out or order? Meaning you dont eat on time, you slept very late at night, you bathed when everyone is sleeping soundly and you had breakfast when you are suppose to have lunch?
Well, I did most of the actions above. >0< I dont know why did I do most of them, I just cant get myself to work on time and finish a work in the same time. I woke up whenever I felt I need to (for prayers). I ate when I felt really really hungry. I did my assignment on the day before the dateline. ( this is bad ) What else? I need to fix myself. These negative behaviours should be stop or else... I will lead a very messy life. It will affect my study, in terms of achievement. I will get fat easily ..... (OoO)= ( nooooo!!! I've gained enough ) ... Someone kill me.
Nop. This is not my room. And that girl is not me. -_-
Here are some pics that I wanted to post so much a few weeks ago.
Pelajar-pelajar Tingkatan 2 Cerdik. Dan guru B.I mereka :D
sibuk mintak autograf. terasa cam artis sekejap >0< Farewell presents from them and other teachers of the school. I didn't get a lot of these for my birthday o_o Anyway, thanks a lot to them!
Today is the second day of the second week of my study at U.K.M.It feels great to be back. But, I felt a bit sad because most of my 3rd year friends were already at home, probably working or watching La Lola. Felt sooo lonely without them.
Anyway, I have to continue my study. One year left. What would happen? Am I going to change? Have a boyfriend??? Getting married??? Urgh.No. I should focus on my study. Struggle with what I have left. Improve my exam result.
Practicum. So what have I learned?
1. Classroom management. You know, I had to handle 2 classes; Form 1 beginners and Form 2 mix learners. The form 1 class was the most difficult class to handle. I had to spend 10 minutes first just to make sure they do not wonder around the school ( which they loved most :I ), get them to take out their books, reorganize their seats if they were too loud ( bising dan tak boleh duduk satu bangsa saje ). When teaching, I had to make sure my teaching attracted their attentions in every way or else..they will complain ( boring la cegu, bising la cegu, nak pegi tandas la cegu). Haih~. I dont have these problems with Form 2. They were obedient and nice to me.
2. Teaching It seems like I had to study a lot of teaching techniques. Most of my teaching method did not deliver the content properly. I am starting to lost a little confidence in myself. And, i think, my teaching might be traditional and not suitable for beginners like Form 1.
3.Time-management. It's about taking care of yourself. I found that I lacked a lot of things especially in managing my own time, doing task right on time, be at school right on time and others related to time. I observed my Science friends and I think I need to improve more on this aspect.
Despite all the improvement that I need to do, I found some silver linings within the cloud of weaknesses.
1. New friends. I think I had mention this in my previous post.
2. New Confidence. I think I could talk to people that I dont know more openly. In English.
3. In love with fashion and cosmetics. Somehow, I found myself too occupied to cosmetics and fashion magazines and all the women stuff.
4. More into K-pop. Suddenly, Suju and SNSD songs became my favourites to play again and again.
Sudah lama tidak blogging. Maklumlah, sebuk dengan anak-anak di sekolah.
Pada hari Ahad yang lepas, saya telah pergi mendaftar kolej untuk kali keempat, tahun keempat. Masa nak masuk, dengarnya, kene buat saringan selsema babi. Aish. Mane bleh. Saya tak makan babi. Apatah lagi babi yang terkena selsema. Jadi mestilah saya free dari penyakit itu.
Gerak dari rumah Seremban pagi-pagi lagi. Dengan Chana, Yatt and Tasha Merican. Hajar pulak balik Jompul. Inilah pelajar-pelajar Akademi Seremban Jaya yang terkeluar minggu ini. Dengan punggung masing-masing.
Naik komuter pukul 9, sampai di kulej pukul 9.50. Mamam kat kedai depan simpang sekejap.
Lepas itu, masuk UKM. Naik Kancil beroda empat. *Thanks to Tasha and her bf*
Sementara Yatt Yatt and Chana mengemas bilik memasing, saya melepak di blok.
Rindunya dengan budak-budak lama.
Tapi, blok pulak ada tambahan perabot.
Nampak tak kerusi baru tuh wahai ex-K4fs ???
Miss Kupo masih wujud.
Hehe. Bilik saya pun ada tambahan baru.
Saya...akan mempertahankan warisan K4F ini. Yaahhhhh~
Dan yang paling besh....
T-shirt kolej yang keempat.
Lepak kulej sampai pukul 2. Lepas itu, beronggeng di Mines. Dengan budak-budak rumah. Sampai malam. Yay!
Lepas tu, nangis sebab lesson plan untuk besok tak siap lagi.
Tapi, I had a lot of fun. Maklumlah, dah lama tak keluar.
It has been nearly two weeks since the school holiday passed by.
The teaching continued. I prepared lessons and teaching aids.
Go to the class and teach. But, i dont follow the lesson steps completely.
Sometimes I can't continue because the school has so many out of class activities for the students. I have to postpone my teaching for that day. Even though I only teach the Form 1 and Form 2 students five times a week ( equals 10 period ), I wished I can finish a chapter in two weeks.
Furthermore, I can't use full English to teach them. They cant understand. Even the word "spectacle".
Also, I had to deal with their behavior. Not paying attention to me, talk so loud like both of them are talking from 2 mountains, " degil " and all sorts of repulsive behaviour i have to deal with.
And I did all of these for the sake of getting a pass for my course.
Without getting any payment from anyone. Well, except for me mum. :D
" sedikit bosan"
Bosan la konon. Tapi bila lecturer nak datang observe mula menggelabah. * marah diri sendiri *
Okay, sekarang ini nak cerita pasal skool yang telah saya pilih untuk praktikum. Sekolah ini terletak kire2 20 minit dari rumah Pedas and 15 minit dari rumah sewa.
First time bile masuk ke sekolah tu, agak nervous. Malah terpegun dengan kawasan sekolah yang sangat luas. Sekolah baru buatla katakan.
Masuk pejabat kene punch kad, sama macam masa pra-praktikum dulu. Kakitangan pejabat agak ramah. dan mesra. dan observant pada masa yang sama.
kemudian, kami berenam dipanggil masuk ke pejabat GPK 1. berkenalan dengan GPK dan 2 student PKPG dari UPSI.
saya dan yatt serta 2 student UPSI dapat petang, yang lain di tugaskan ke pagi.
ikut je sebab tak tau nak react atau buat apa masa tu. Dapat 2 kelas dan 10 masa mengajar.
2 minggu ni berlalu dengan pelbagai pengalaman.
Terdapat sesetengah guru yang kurang menyukai kehadiran kami. Oleh itu, macam-macam perangai telah di buat. Kami berdiam diri. Malas nak wat drama. Lagipun buruk name U nanti.
Secondly, perangai student yang sangat-sangat la menarik. Maklumlah, jumlah ketiga-tiga kaum sama rata. dahla first time masuk sekolah yang mempunyai pelbagai kaum ni, hairan gak tengok perangai masing-masing. ada yang buruk dan ada yang baik.
Paling tak boleh lupa, di tipu oleh student. kata nak pergi duty kat koperasi, rupa-rupanya pergi mengadu kat cikgu lain pasal kita tak jaga kelas. adakah patut? sedangkan saya dengan bersungguh menjaga pelajar supaya tak buat bising dan keluar dengan sewenang-wenangnye. selepas menyiasat latar belakang budak tu, rupa2nya dia memang suka buat cerita, seorang pencuri dan kaki belit. bila di tanya kenapa keluar awal dan ke mana dia pergi, dia pusing cerita. macam-macam sampai sakit telinga mendengarnya. Haih~ Budak-budak zaman sekarang.
Thirdly, mula ragu-ragu dengan kemampuan diri untuk menjadi seorang GURU. mampukah aku? pernah masuk dan mengajar sekali. budak kata boring. then, banyak kesalahan di lakukan. mula rasa rendah diri.
tapi tak apa, saya tetap akan cuba perbaiki apa yang patut. i will learn from the teachers and my practicum friends.
dan, betul kata orang putih, " every cloud has a silver lining". walaupun berhadapan dengan pelbagai pengalaman, namun saya telah memperoleh 4 rakan baru. satu fak pulak tuh. tambahan pulak, saya juga telah berkenalan dengan guru-guru yang banyak memberi sokongan moral walaupun baru kenal seminggu.
pendek kata, bestlah praktikum ni. dahla dapat dekat dengan rumah, environment is not bad dan mudah nak sesuaikan diri. Yay! for me.
Nak tengok sekolahku?
sekolah ni sangat okay. walaupun takde lift cam skolah maya. :P
Bile sibuk terfikirkan bagaimana keadaan diri semasa praktikum di Seremban nanti, tiba-tiba saya terfikirkan basikal merah berbakul hitam yang tersadai kat rumah Pekan. Hai...lama dah tak naik basikal. Kalau tak, dulu masa duduk kat Pekan, pergi mana-mana pun naik basikal, tak kirala siang atau malam. Petang-petang kalau tak ada apa nak buat kat rumah, pergi la ambik angin, bawak basikal keliling kampung. Dah lama tak betul tak berbasikal. Rindu sangat. Saya ni pergi sekolah naik basikal je, dari sekolah rendah sampai sekolah menengah. Sampai Form 6. Bawakla basikal merah tu. Berjasa betul pada tuannye. Apa cerita basikal tu agaknye. Dah berkarat kot. Lagi satu, agaknye bawak basikal la menyebabkan saya sentiasa kurus...hahaha. Maybe.
Nanti, masa praktikum esok, maybe boleh bawak basikal pergi sekolah. Mesti budak-budak suke tengok.
Pernahkah anda melihat basikal berenjin? Bukan moto tau, tapi basikal!
Lagi satu, yang menjadi makanan harian semasa sekolah rendah ( ini teringat gara-gara Nabihah membelanja mee goreng kuali besar dengan telur ( * drool * ) ) . Dulu harganya seringgit sahaja. Waktu rehat, selalu keluar sorang-sorang dan pergilah ke terminal bas Pekan. Kat situ ada deretan gerai-gerai yang jual makanan. Saya selalu pergi kat kedai yang pakcik ni seorang je yang jaga dan masak dan jual makanan. Masa tu, dia jual nasi goreng ayam dan telur. Lagi satu, mee lidi , waktu tu harganya murah je RM1.50 dengan telur goreng. Tambah pulak dengan sambal pedas. Banyak pulak tu. Kenyang! Lepas tu, beli air sirap segelas, lime posen je. Hahaha. Memang kenyang. Makan sorang-sorang. Waktu itu, rakan-rakan makan kat kedai lain. Ada sejam je untuk rehat. Lepas tu, kene masuk kelas tambahan balik. Kalau tak beli mee goreng, beli nasi lemak, tapi mahal sikit. Tapi masih lagi kat kedai yang sama.
Apa la cerita pakcik tu sekarang. Ingat ke tidak muke aku ni.
Walaupun saya suka makan mee goreng, tapi saya selalu fail bile goreng mee. Hahaha.
Tibe-tibe pulak teringatkan rumah dan kucing-kucing kat Pekan. Hope they are fine. :D
It has been a while since I posted the TESLian vid. Maklumlah, study dan assignment terlambat buat.
First...have you ever heard about the Holocaust? Pembunuhan orang Yahudi beramai-ramai oleh Adolf Hitler atas sebab nak orang German yang di katakan " pure " sahaja yang boleh stay kat German.
Saya sebenarnye tak tahu detailed sangat pasal bende ni. Tapi, satu hari , semasa berchatting dengan Mr. James Meyer di Facebook, saya tanye die mengenai filem yang direviu olehnye. Tajuk filem itu ialah " The Boy in the Striped Pyjama ". Mr. Meyer said that the film told viewers a bit about the Genocide and what happened to the people who were gathered and died in the concentration camp. Saya sebenarnye dah tak ingat sangat pasal apa yang pernah saya baca pasal bende ni. Entah tapi tak ingat. James was shocked. " He said, " How come you did not know about the Holocaust. This is one of the most important thing happened in the history.Must be from where you came from ". Alah, bukan tak tahu, tapi tak ingat. Bile die mentioned pasal Adolf Hitler, barula teringat. Itupun, sebab pernah baca pasal Holocaust dalam surat khabar.
Lepas tu, mula la gelabah. Bukaklah wikipedia dan bace.
Holocaust ni, peristiwa yang sangat teruk berlaku kat orang Yahudi. Walaupun kita bukanlah sekutu mereka, tetapi mereka telah di bunuh sewenang-wenangnye dengan pelbagai cara. Mereka di kumpul di dalam kem, tidak diberi makanan, di bakar hidup-hidup, dijadikan bahan eksperimen untuk perubatan ( kanak-kanak jadi mangsa), di bunuh dengan melepaskan sejenis gas tidak berbau dan mati begitu sahaja. Bende ni berlangsung selama 8 tahun. Bukan etnik Yahudi sahaja dibunuh, orang Poland, Romanian, orang Soviet POW (entah apa maksudnya saya tak tahu), homoseksual, orang yang di anggap ada masalah mental dan pejuang-pejuang agama khsuusnya Kristian pada masa tuh. Estimate number of death : 10 million. Banyak tuh.
" remember one set of twins in particular: Guido and Ina, aged about four. One day, Mengele took them away. When they returned, they were in a terrible state: they had been sewn together, back to back, like Siamese twins. Their wounds were infected and oozing pus. They screamed day and night. Then their parents – I remember the mother's name was Stella – managed to get some morphine and they killed the children in order to end their suffering.[30]taken from Wikipedia.
Rasa kesian gak sebab hak mereka di ketepikan, tiada pembelaan dan bende berhenti pada tahun 1945 dimana askar-askar Amerika dan British membebaskan kem-kem tersebut dan hanya menjumpai orang-orang yang malnutrisi, bau mayat yang sangat meloyakan, kanak-kanak hasil eksperimentasi yang hidup dalam kesakitan dan pelbagai lagi bende yang sangat tak dapat di terima akal pada masa tuh.
" The BBC's Richard Dimbleby described the scenes that greeted him and the British Army at Belsen:[226]
Here over an acre of ground lay dead and dying people. You could not see which was which ... The living lay with their heads against the corpses and around them moved the awful, ghostly procession of emaciated, aimless people, with nothing to do and with no hope of life, unable to move out of your way, unable to look at the terrible sights around them ... Babies had been born here, tiny wizened things that could not live ... A mother, driven mad, screamed at a British sentry to give her milk for her child, and thrust the tiny mite into his arms ... He opened the bundle and found the baby had been dead for days. This day at Belsen was the most horrible of my life. "
Kubur besar Berger-Belsen yang di buat oleh British semasa pembebasan kem di German.
Sangat teruk. Tapi, walaupun Yahudi pernah di seksa seteruk ini, mereka tak serik.
Ramai pelajar graduan sekolah-sekolah Malaysia tak tahu Holocaust ni apa.
Maybe kerajaan patut jadikan Holocaust sebagai salah satu sejarah yang perlu di pelajari oleh budak-budak sekolah kat Malaysia.
Dan, rasanya, ramai budak-budak yang sekolah kat Malaysia tak tahu pasal sejarah2 dunia yang penting. Kecuali mereka banyak membaca ensaiklopedia ke hape. Tapi, nak ke mereka baca? I mean, history, sapa yang minat. But, dont get me wrong, im just guessing. I loved History, ya know.
It it a term used for a type of movie, especially the Western movie.
Legally Blonde, She's All That, Never Been Kissed and the newest one, Confessions of A Shopaholic ( my new favourite novel! )...
These movies belong to the genre. Well, it is because the movies focused on the female character and her struggle to get something such as the Prince Charming, and the movie usually ended up with the female grop...err..kissing the Prince as a happy ending.
I loved chick flicks. Because we are chicks who watches those flicks.
One thing I understand about this type of movie is boys do not have the b.... to watch it. They might be considered as sissy or gay or anything related to third gender. I bet the girls who went out with their bfs had a rough time deciding the films they wanted to watch when they arrived at the cinema.
I wonder if there are boys who watch chick flicks despite the fact that they are not chicks but roosters. XD.
What about you girls? Do you have your own preferred flick?
Life is just like a wheel. Sometimes you are up and sometimes you are down. But, it was not bad because we will get to the upper part of the wheel again. And go down again.
I am saying this because I have learned and realized something that has been bothering me since the third year of my study.
There was a girl that I considered as a very good friend of mine. I DID considered her as a very good friend of mine but today, I realized that she does not feel the same way. Of course, because we are two different person and we think differently....very differently.
And, this realization is not something that made me sad, but it made my heart felt lighter. From now on, I do not have to think too much if she do not even glance at me when we see each other. ( I always think a lot about things that happened to me even if it is just a small matter )
I am very glad that I realized it.
" You are just not important. That's it " ---> someone said to me.
And I realized, I am not important because I am not important. That is all. Not because she hates me or anything.
Finally, what a relief.
P/S: I have been a very forgetful person today. I forgot to take my wallet with me thrice!
Manchester Ferris Wheel.
( alaa, yang mawi pegi naik masa wat dokumentari untuk astro tuh )
When the sun is setting
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Walking barefooted on the sand, I frolicked at the water edge.
Watching the sun setting on the horizon, I took as much time as I needed to
breath it all...
Inilah pelajar-pelajar Akademi Seremban Jaya yang terkeluar minggu ini. Dengan punggung masing-masing.
Hehe. Bilik saya pun ada tambahan baru.
jangan nervous breakdown kat sekolah sudaaa~
* drool *
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